You know the kid that always struggled hopping over the fence, ran funny, laughed like a woman, ate more his portion of cereal at your house, etc… yeah, that was me, and in a lot of ways I’m still that guy, you know, “the big guy”. I tried to do the baseball thing when I was a kid to hopefully plug-in a little more with the kids at school, and I remember being totally embarrassed when I had to get the largest size available for boys baseball pants and still nearly ripping the pants right down the butt because they were so tight (as shown in the photo above). I was so fat I would ALWAYS get pegged while it was my turn to bat, and there was always that overly caring mother, not my own, that would always  say something as I’m leaving the field, “you’re doing good kid” when EVERYONE knew I totally sucked, and ran like a girl. That baseball thing was short lived. In some weird way, I’m glad I’ve been “the big guy” my whole life. Of course there was that time in my life when I was kinda hot, but that was also short lived.

I’m freakin’ huge here…

So recently, sometime in April 2010 I decided even though I’ve never really minded being “the big guy” I wondered what it was like to not be heavy anymore, and to actually fit into clothes smaller than an XXL. I’ve tried SO MANY fad diets and TV trends in my day, most attempts at losing weight were 2 week hopeless events that would eventually end up in disappointment. I love grazing… I love bread. I could live on bread. And beef, I like beef a lot. And that is what made me a fat guy. So pretty much, I eat protein and veggies, or I eat carbs and veggies, but never protein and carbs together in the same “meal session”, which makes things really difficult because ALL great tasting food has those as combos like hamburgers, pizza, lasagna, chicken pasta… you get it. It has all worked though, I started at 245 and now I’m 195 and it’s weird, because I actually bought a large shirt and a size 34 pants the other day. I really hope food doesn’t take me over again, but deep inside I’ll always be “the big guy”.

Not so huge here…

Yeah, Ive been wanting to do this for awhile, somewhere I could just say whatever I want, however… I tend to change my mind a lot though, a little indecisive. Maybe from the help of some of you, I will be able to gather something more concrete out of it all. There’s a lot of things I love, I want to share those loves with anyone who happens to stumble on this blog. There are also a lot of things that frustrate and piss me off that you may agree with and may be equally mad at me for saying such things, but hey, whatever… What I DO know, is that most of the time I’ll share with people my God and some music I think He’s wanting me to share with you.